again

It has been forever and a day since I last blogged. Things have happened in that time period and I'd rather not dwell in the past. Just moving forward. Onward and upward.

I've been in need of a space to share so I'm going to attempt to make this that space again. I'm hoping no one reads this thing anymore since I've dropped off the blogosphere radar for almost a year, but if I do have any readers out there, welcome back.

I had a dream about him again last night. I don't know why this keeps happening. The dude is off and married and there is no part of me that wishes he wasn't. But yet again I had another vivid dream that seems to capture heartache and anger and disappointment concerning this person. I woke up feeling defeated and hurt as if remembering some painful memory. And I'm upset that it pains me so much throughout the day following the dream.

And can we just pause for a moment of silence to recognize that I've been single for... let's see, 4.5 years? Yikes stripes. Don't get me wrong - I've definitely crossed the hump where I am certainly happy in being single but after so much time, I do start to wonder if that's my future. Singledom? Singlehood? Single.

I'm thankful I've made close friendships with girls who are also single. Birds of a feather flock together, right? Good grief.

I'll end this with a quote from one of my favorite tv shows, "Happy Endings"...
"I can spin this! That's why they call me the Old Spinster!" - Penny

news

I'm moving to Sacramento in June.

Big things poppin' in 2012.

the sixth

November 6th

My mom turned 60 years old today. Hard to believe she's numerically this old because her soul and spirit are so young and vibrant. She is the most generous, kind, compassionate, and selfless person I've ever encountered. I am immensely blessed by having her as my mom and my best friend.

I'm thankful for my mom's sixty years of life and her current health which promises many, many more years to come.

the fifth

November 5th

I'm thankful for all the opportunities I've had to see dance performances, plays, musicals, and other art performances. I am rich in spirit from the performing arts.

the fourth

November 4th

I'm thankful for the musical "Les Miserables." It moves me emotionally and musically. Every time.

the third

November 3rd

I'm thankful for Erin who has been cutting my hair since my junior year of high school. She has provided me with guidance through my impulsive moments of rebellion. But ultimately she's continuously transformed me.

the second

November 2nd

I've always joked that if I were to ever do drugs, I would do inhalants. I'm one of those folks that lives off the smell of dry erase markers, white out, gasoline, Pine Sol, sharpies, etc. I don't know what it is but my nose loves to smell these items. Recently it's occurred with my hair product, toothpaste, Lysol wipes, hand sanitizer and so on. I don't go overboard in sniffing but if I catch a whiff in passing I might waft a second dose my way. Sue me. But I was reminded today by a SACADA training why I don't do drugs and never actually cave into those lingering urges to inhale. I care for my body and it's entire creation way too much than I do for a quick and easy high. The statistics shared at this training were startling and great reminders for my choice of being drug free.

I'm thankful for today's training and my self-control.