again

It has been forever and a day since I last blogged. Things have happened in that time period and I'd rather not dwell in the past. Just moving forward. Onward and upward.

I've been in need of a space to share so I'm going to attempt to make this that space again. I'm hoping no one reads this thing anymore since I've dropped off the blogosphere radar for almost a year, but if I do have any readers out there, welcome back.

I had a dream about him again last night. I don't know why this keeps happening. The dude is off and married and there is no part of me that wishes he wasn't. But yet again I had another vivid dream that seems to capture heartache and anger and disappointment concerning this person. I woke up feeling defeated and hurt as if remembering some painful memory. And I'm upset that it pains me so much throughout the day following the dream.

And can we just pause for a moment of silence to recognize that I've been single for... let's see, 4.5 years? Yikes stripes. Don't get me wrong - I've definitely crossed the hump where I am certainly happy in being single but after so much time, I do start to wonder if that's my future. Singledom? Singlehood? Single.

I'm thankful I've made close friendships with girls who are also single. Birds of a feather flock together, right? Good grief.

I'll end this with a quote from one of my favorite tv shows, "Happy Endings"...
"I can spin this! That's why they call me the Old Spinster!" - Penny