Friday, September 17, 2010

waiting room review

I've been living in my own apartment for four months now and I've yet to make substantial attempts in acquiring Internet or cable television. I suppose I just haven't felt the need to design my home life around its accessibility. If I need to look anything up on the Internet, my iPhone is extremely useful. As for entertainment purposes, the public library and Netflix Instant keep me pretty happy. I suppose I'm just surprised by this accidental lifestyle change because if we were friends in college you would know that I loved my television shows and I had VCR tapes to prove it.
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Last night I was terribly upset by something and originally wanted to spend my evening tipping back as much beer and shots as possible to drown out my anger. Once I stepped inside my apartment, put my purse on the kitchen chair, and plopped down on my futon I realized that I didn't want to be "that" girl. So instead, I changed into my comfy pajamas, lit a few candles, poured myself some pinto grigio, and opened to the first page of an Esther bible study my mom had given me several months ago. I sat there reading the forward and the introduction in the scented candlelight, nervously hesitant to dive further into the study. In all honesty I haven't read the Bible in four to five months. I left my church and in turn stopped volunteering with the middle school youth. I wouldn't say I've turned my back on God, but I certainly haven't faced Him in awhile. When I think back to my ministry involvement in college, I can't seem to find that same girl in me now. I'm more honest with my intentions and only want them to be raw and genuine. I can't fake it anymore. And I'm slowly finding my own way, feeling that inner desire for something deeper. But it'll never be the same, and I'm thankful for that.
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I would like to be an editor. I'm by no means a connoisseur of English grammar or literature, but I do believe I would be a great editor. My co-workers know that I have "editor's eye" so I've become the resident "can you look this over for me, Laura?" gal. I love it. And I love to read. So make those two things have babies, and give me an editor job. Somebody, please!
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My iPhone just quit on me for the second time. All because I attempt to update its software on my seven year old Toshiba laptop. Oops, my bad. I've already reserved a Genius Bar appointment for tomorrow morning. I hate being the opposite of techno-savvy. Techno-stupid? Meh, I'll go with that name. At least when it concerns Apple products.
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While in the doctor's office this morning I reviewed several of my last blog posts and I didn't know until now that I mention virginity quite often. Almost an uncomfortable amount of times. And now add this one to the list. Oy vey.
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October 1st is World Vegetarian Day. I've pledged to be vegetarian for the entire month (with the exception of five meat meal passes to be used at my disposal). I asked my resident vegetarian co-worker to approve these passes and explained that when my sister returns from Afghanistan and visits us for a week, I'm going to need permission to devour as much ribs, fajita meat, and fried chicken as possible. I can't leave a carnivorous sister hanging.