Monday, January 31, 2011

kind quote 1/31

For Christmas my mom gave me a desk calendar called "Kind Anecdotes" which provides sayings and stories related to kindness. Today's kind quote has been my favorite thus far for this year:

"Each person has inside a basic decency and goodness. If he listens to it and acts on it, he is giving a great deal of what it is the world needs most. It is not complicated but it takes courage. It takes courage for a person to listen to his own goodness and act on it."
- Pablo Casals

Thursday, January 27, 2011

pictures

Is it bad that part of me wishes I were engaged right now only for the sole purpose of having an excuse to take trendy, artsy, creative pictures with an amazing photographer? I am constantly blown away by several engagement pictures I've seen on Facebook. The photographs seem to capture so many amazing qualities about the people, the couple, the love, the future. Black and grey scale, shadows, contrast, focus on color, soft delicate tender moments, joyful real silly shots, blurred out of focus secrecy, upclose and personal exposure, stolen glimpses of intimacy, smiles and smirks, stares and glances.

Here are just a few pictures I adore from past and present friend engagements:






Tuesday, January 11, 2011

spark

I have a great friend who is undeniably blessed with gifts of encouragement, wisdom, and honesty. She was in town last night and provided me with some amazing words I needed to hear. I was explaining to her my recent movie magic guy situation and how I've been feeling since it ended before it began. After 2.5ish years of being single and no real prospective guys in sight, I fell hard into the situation and hoped for the best. I felt a spark that I hadn't felt in such a long time and it felt wonderful. 

What my beautiful friend brought to my attention was that I needn't feel sad that nothing was occurring with the guy who gave me the spark. What I should be thankful for was that I was finally able to feel the spark again. I glazed the presence of THE spark. And I'm reminded that a more enriching and encompassing spark is waiting for me somewhere in the future. 

Waiting. That's the other key thing to remember. Waiting, not looking. 

These words and more were echoes of a text my other incredible friend sent me this week in regards to where my heart has been: "I know.. Its hard. But, how great does it feel to know how pursuable you are...," and you're right MG. It does feel empowering to know my value as a woman and what I have to contribute to a relationship. And one day the right guy will realize my value and will uplift me to show me I'm worth it. And in turn I'll do the same for him. 

So... wait I shall. And self-worth I will pursue. 

Thursday, January 6, 2011

movie magic

You can't create movie magic in real life. If you try and manipulate a moment to become movie magic, then you've missed the whole concept of it in the first place. Movie magic occurs when something so organic and genuine just naturally happens and it sweeps you off your feet and catches your breath all at once. Movie magic is a feeling you'll always assign to a particular memory that was so outstanding and marvelous that you could only imagine it occurring in a movie. True authentic movie magic is rare. But if you've ever had a taste of it you know how powerful and overwhelming it can be.

Personally, I can think of two movie magic moments occurring in my lifetime. My first taste of movie magic was during my junior year of college. It involved a crush on a boy, a misunderstanding, hurt feelings, apologetic phone call, dropped call, crying, pebbles thrown at window, third floor conversation, running down the stairs, forgiveness, and kisses in the stairwell. A very Romeo and Juliet-esque movie magic moment, I'd say.

My second movie magic moment happened this past weekend. I am so completely enamored by this moment that I'm still having to recover and return to earth from the entire experience. A delicate, perfect kiss underneath the Hollywood sign at 3 am followed by a night of gentle yet passionate canoodling in a warm bed. It was perfection. Movie magic perfection. He was a stranger two weeks ago but now I feel as if I've been waiting for a guy as special as him for quite some time.

But unfortunately, as with all magic, movie magic is only temporary. You aren't allowed to experience movie magic forever. And so in this more recent instance, my movie magician is still in LA and I am in SA. So all the daydreams that follow movie magic will now cease to transform into reality. And that makes me quite sad.

Then again, I remember how lucky I've been to experience movie magic more than once. And no one can take those memories away. I hope you glimpse movie magic because it truly is astounding to feel in your heart.